its crazy when you think about how tumblr works because unless you follow someone that interacts with the inner circle of core users it really is a barren wasteland out there
obviously its the only correct way to run social media but its truly insane that there really isnt any other sites left where you get authentic word-of-mouth social networking that doesnt rely on Curated Content
i love ignoring things….. people…. problems …. responsibilities……feelings…..
Today I lost a child and a friend.
I took care of you since you were just a baby but not long enough to become an adult.
I wish we grew older together, but today the universe wants me to learn that,
I shouldn’t take things for granted. I could’ve treat you better but I didn’t. From this, I realise I have a lot of traumas to heal from to.
I should’ve learn to let go. Everything comes and everything leaves. From this, I wish to never forget to cherish the time spent with ones I love.
I put the burden of my lonely and quite life to you, I went too obsessed and forced you to be the company I didn’t have, and my ego ended up being the one that kills you.
From this, I should make peace w myself first before I take the responsibility to nurtures, cares, and nourishs living things.
Now I’m left with pain and guilt.
Rest high, Puru.
You are my very first pet I have attached with and we knew our relationship was real. Your four months companion taught me a lot about lives that I ever did with myself.
I wish you a better lives in the alternate universe.
Introduction
I’ve been spending a lot of time try to acknowledge and understand the way my mind, body, and soul works coherently. It gets real tight and overwhelmed at first, even it still is after 23 years long spent inside this being.
There are days where I just can’t feel and my body reject to collaborate. There are days where I can feel a whole lotta lot. Yet there are days feel like I am trapped in a deep dark hole I dug myself in.
I suppose this is how life teaching me to have courage,
That some days I’m gonna wake up feeling empty but I have to hold on.
And to have patience,
For the other days might be blurry and rocky, but phases in life are built on persistency and that takes time to develop.
Life is about what I want to do today.
I wish for an adequate strength to get through each day, and the benevolence to make the most for the day.
